Anxiety
Posted by Justin9 | Filed under Uncategorized
Am I having it? No. But am I anxious? Fuck yes… I can wait to perform tonight… It’s really the first time Gravitron has played with their whole band on stage so it should be quite interesting… Everyone seems like we know our shit so I’m not too worried. The only problem is playing running through live sound… Hopefully the sound dude knows what the he’ll he or she is doing. In my experience they rarely do. I think the key is not to stress too much about everyone else and keep in mind that as long as I do my thing there’s not much else to do about anything… And I know how to do my thing. I woke up at around 6:30 today super stoked already to play a show that was over 17 hours away. This is no bueno. Plus I had to come to work and get through a day that is dragging on cause I’m super slow. Then I have to rush home and prepare for Jacob’s wedding reception that is going to be from 5:30 till like 11! That’s a while… Then when it finally gets late all the anxious waiting and killing time will turn into the final hour or 2 before show time and I’ll still be an opus but probably nervous at the same time… I’ll get impatient and excited and all I will think about is playing a good show and I’ll go through the bass lines and parts in my head and I’ll go over some stage presence ideas and dance moves… Basically just make myself more nervous… Then it’s almost tomorrow and I’ll tune up my bass. Fresh 9v batterey for piece of mind my bass doesn’t quit on me… Crit will start the intro and I’ll find my zone. Shwag and my equally nervous other mc Kru will join us on stage and suddenly I’ll be more comfortable than ever doing what I love doing. Performing. Playing bass. Entertaing friends, family, and strangers… Being a goof ball. But most of all I’ll finally be in MY element… In MY comfort zone… Where I belong… And all the nerves and all the stress… And all the watching the clock… And emotion that I felt for the last 17 hours…. It will all be worth it!
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