Getting Closer
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The closer it gets to next friday, the sadder I get and the more I realize I dont want it to be over. I know Ive tossed the idea of ending OSN a handful of times and all it ever took was a good show or practice to kick me in the teeth and realize… How fucking awesome we are and how much the band means to me! Even just kicking it with Josh and Jacob help me understand why OSN was so important. The past few days Ive been feeling pretty upset and borderline depressed. Maybe the reality of OSN is getting to me? I dont know but its something… and I definitley feel like once we’re done with our set next friday I might be a little torn up on the inside. Seven Years! Seven Years of my mediocre songwriting. 7 years of friends, famly and fans singing my heart thought lyrics along with me! 7 years of doing what I love to do more than anything else in the world. Fuck, I can’t belive its almost over.
So I’m left with this… No band. A guitar. A heart and an opinion. Do I quit the game and retire from doing what truly makes me happy? Do i walk away to live a life where everyday I might think I wasted away another chance of making something of myself. Or is it all just a dream and do I finally wake up.
I thought the end was going to be alot easier than its turning out to be. I thought I could just hang it up and begin to kick it worry free from all the bull shit that surrounds the dream, the game, the life… Everyday gets a little rougher right now…
I have an acoustic EP Ive been working on and around for months now. Probably at 90% completion too! I was gonna walk away from it. But ive already worked so hard, and I can’t not finish it. I might regret it for the rest of my life.
Here’s whats fresh. OSN has band practice today. I cant wait to jam with the fellas. I better soak it up too cause 12 days from now it will all be over…
ONE MORE NITE
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this shit chokes me up man. I can’t believe the ride is almost over….
Oh shit
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Just so you know… I’m taking my first shit since early Tuesday morning last week. And for the record.. it’s not easy. there is pain involved and some pushing and my feet are starting to fall asleep! I want this to be over but I sense there is no end in sight the way this poo is going!
Be Productive
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Well I haven’t done shit really since Monday at work. other than that I’ve gotten my vasectomy, laid around, slept, eaten, tweeted, blogged, took percocet and… that’s pretty much it!
tomorrow my goal is to fix the boys’ bikes. Thomas needs a new back tire and I bought new training wheels for Bear cause mama ran that shit over!
I feel like I should accomplish at least 1 productive task before I go back to wok Monday after my 6 days off!
it was a nice run… well there wasn’t much running… more just laying around with my nuts on ice…
Baby Girl
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sleeping beauty. I think this little girl flipped my life upside down. in a good way…
Song
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I asked lifted today if he ever got around to finishing the last song I recorded with him. He told me there wasn’t a point cause I told him I was quitting the game. I thought that was kinda weak. still could have been a good song I think…
fuck it though! I’m pretty stoked to play the last OSN show and start life with no other projects and see what’s next! I think my next hobby will be kicking it! I love me some kicking it!!!
Sleep
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I’m extremley tired. my mind is racing…. why? I have no idea. also I’m feeling a little anxitey. again, not sure why…. since surgery I haven’t has a decent nite of sleep yet! tonight was supposed to be different but I don’t think it’s gonna go down that way! had to come down stairs so I could watch some tv see if I can turn this nite around!
I just want to sleep!
Uno Mas
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just got off the horn with the boss lady and it looks like I’m staying home another day! Be kinda pointless for me to be there if I’m gonna be drugged on pain killers dizzy and tired and sore the whole day…
whatever I’ll just ice my balls on the couch another day
The Dark Knight
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Movie Review: Bad Ass Flick
aside from batman being a childhood hero… this movie is dope because Heath Ledgers Joker is prob the dopest character I’ve ever seen! That’s what’s fresh!
Man VS. Wild
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I still love this show and Bear Grylls. So for all you Bear haters… Fucka You!!! Bitches!
